4.19.2010

Just stop and leave

what the fuck am i doing
what the fuck am i doing
Have you ever had one of those day where you wake up and
actually start thanking for what you have. You feel a slightness
of happiness... you actually feel HAPPY! Light headed towards
your direction, but then everything out of the blue crumbles
and piles up and its, its pure garbage! nothing more than garbage.
How can something feel so beautiful at once but then painful
and greedy afterwards. For no reason what so ever i noticed
my loneliness. I feel the cycle of emptiness nothing more than emptiness.
It goes on and off and on and off a stupid insignificant cycle of depression.
They all had reasons, reasons you didn't get clear but now just now!
I decide to actually know to comprehend that they all in the end left.
By doing that i entered the past. Back where i was two weeks ago.
Now go along fuckers ..... for i need time to think of the time.
To think of this cold journey i face by myself.