where?

find me a warm place and i'll runaway with you

body meets soul

I don't know what else to do
as i think about it more and more
i sink in this atmosphere where i cant breathe
..............no exit

don't try comforting me those are words, words that i cant feel
I'm tripping and tumbling over sentences
and searching for words which can best describe what is locked in my throat,

but they do not exist.

nothing makes sense.

nothing matters.

i wish i could somehow untangle the mess
and for once truly smile with happiness

but that's not possible

i desperately want to erase my memory
just so i won't feel the sting that's piercing my brain

I'm full of ignorance for not accepting.... for not giving up
when obviously know nothing will ever change
i give up!!
i give up!!

I'm on the lowest moods possibly existing
vanish me
kill me...
take the last of my thoughts
take back the last of my breath

for i don't care anymore

"""""""!

you know i hate this song because
it was written for you
-best line ever

i know you what you think

i clearly saw it in your eyes ugh it pisses me off how i can never express my real opinion
i mean yeah maybe i don't want it that way. All i want is for you to say how do you really see me?
Do you fake it ? Why make it hard on my self its only crossed my mind once but by you being insecure it simply proves how poorly you know me....yeah today i finally felt like you truly feel. yes silence is the answer for thinking and by doing that i realized how you truly think Saying one thing but reacting another way hmmmmm

i need a fix cause I'm going down

coldplay

great song

Let it be

Last night i had the best dream ever

please let everything be like that

not what i expected

1. Where is your cell phone? Hmmm in the living room
2. Your hair? Quite crappy
3. Your mother? irritating
4. Your father? Really don’t know
5. Your favorite food? Woo to many
6. Your dream last night? …..kinda private
7. Your favorite drink? Apple juice
8. Your dream/goal? Happy
9. What room are you in? mine
10. Your hobby? volleyball
11. Your fear? failure
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? college
13. Where were you last night? Tios casa
14. Something you aren't? secure
15. Muffins? Love them
16. Wish list item? Camera
17. Where did you grow up? Pennsylvania/Chicago/New jersey
18. Last thing you did? tweeted
19. What are you wearing? pajamas
20. Your TV? What about it
21. Your pets? Max dead I think
22. Your friends? Somewhere around the world
23. Your life? Shitty
24. Your mood? sleepy
25. Missing someone? yes
26. Vehicle? don’t have one yet
27. Something you're not wearing? shoes
28. Your favorite store? express
29. Your favorite color? Blue-ish green-ish mixed together oh and black
30. When was the last time you laughed? About half an hour ago
31. Last time you cried? This week
32. Your best friend? Is awesome
33. One place that I go over and over? School
34. One person who emails me regularly? Coolgirl
35. Favorite place to eat? A lot..
36. Last movie seen? The lovely bones
37. Last person to call you babe/baby? David
38. Today’s date? 1.23.10
39.Favorite song? Hmm like a knife or or idontknow too many
40.What were your plans for today? sleep sleep water and sleep
but unfortunately i stayed up and complained

live life

Directions...
please follow

Open your eyes feel the wind.
Smell the fresh air after days of raining.
Feel the humidity that's slowly gets in your body.
Smile get mad and cry after that.
Explore with all your senses.
See what surround you and figure how it would be like?
Taste with your brain and not only that share with the hobo in the corner of the alley
Sing like the birds
Dance like you'll fly
Fuck what the neighbor thinks him and the world
Love how i love David

finally

• I dont want to get out
• I dont want to talk
• no food please
• no news
• no texting
• no nothings
• let me rest

today is one of those day where all i could possibly think of is sleep

listen to (ipod) in this case my sisters....forget about everything
and finally give it all a rest

The shinny little pebble.

taking first footsteps but don't even know where I'm going

have no control!

I think i need help
quickly for the first time
in years im thinking of what im doing
and i actually care......somethings wrong
and im quite not undesrtanding what

Sinking deep

I'm drinking sinking swimming drowning working smirking learning burning sleeping thieving beating I'm eating I'm deep in a goldfish bowl

peek

..look beneath the surface there lies the truth..

Blindness

I'm falling hard so hard on my way I'll smash my head
and by that erasing every possible way of forgetting
loosing it no.....no completely forgetting my real theme
forgetting that soon a door's going to open
and by that abandonment comes

i see it its close but how?
assuming I'm free of error
how is it your not doing anything, anything
at all to stop me from feeling like this
are you not comprehending or
am i slowly building a road with negativity and idiocy
that makes me walk in this imitation of perfect universe
a fakeworld in a real world we're all i see is you........

I'm blind its time i opened my eyes


-- Wrote everything that kept floating in my head sorry...

Im done

This is all because of you cause of your stupidity you people piss me off make up your mind just going back and forth what the fuck is that ...go fight...go make up again...
(yeah what kind of exsample is that) critiquing other peoples mistakes look at your piece of shit called life I truely don’t care anymore stopped [May 5 2007]

bitch walked away

Maydelii!!..... never thought i say this but boyyy do i miss this hoe
I'm in one of those obsessed moments right now

everywhere & anywhere

what i figured out,
was i needed more time to figure you out.

Later on...so calm down

“Take two Tic Tacs and call me in the morning,”

Well hello its me

Take me to where everything is nothing and the world is asleep

Understood

I feel broken.........like a bird with no wings
and even if had a pair
it had no place to go

i feel as if i cant see whats so clear
the signs you give me...i simply don't get it

i cant act right
i cant act normal
i cant act a different way

i keep messing up
in this play called "Life"

i don't quite get what you
try to communicate

why? is it something i did?
or did we slowly loose the key

The key of comprehending,
where did it go?
i'll go find it i'll do whatever all so i can act normal
like before like wen we both understood!

Imagine

Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too

Imagine all the people
Living life in peace
You may say that
I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man

Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world
You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will live as one


I love this song <33

......

i always found smoking attractive like in the 60s i kno its bad but it looks cooly

:/

i cant describe how much i wanted to paint and how much i love art its something i always wanted :( sadly i dont have the talent lol

2010!

New beginning

Its my reality...

lady gaga

totally original