It feels like I'm falling. So darling, don't let me go.

My fucking god

Can i have it NOW!

pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

IAMGONNADIENOTHAVINGONE!

give me or share a slice of beauty with me:D

Thank god everything went okay. So my mom had surgery on her shoulder today
and she just came home. One thing to worry less about.
I really don't wanna think now.
I don't wanna do anything but read. Yes its one of those days were
all i think of is outside and a book and outside and a chair and me and a book and outside.
The problem is the library is 4 blocks away lol
now who wants to walk nowadays

no answers

Stop begging for communication
stop searching connection
and yet i still think everything will go back to how it use to be.

How silly of me
I'll keep my distance its obvious you deserve and want yours.

This just keeps getting worse

hit me

Moonlight or Sunlight?
ask me in 30 years wontcha

trust we lost.

: I lock the door from my room turn the volume up so i wont hear them fight!

: I found this poem in the book i am currently reading and it related to me in a strange way i absolutely fell in love with it. Its by Whitney Lang

Stumbling

i only have one question,

scraping the inside of me.

answer it and i will stumble

back into her shadow.

Shut my mouth never

ask again. I've tried to

ignore it, but it wont go away

it haunts my dreams,

chases me through every single day, and i

don't have the strength to

turn around. Face it down

so please tell me

and i swear I'll never ask again.

its in your power to make it go
away. And all you have to do is tell me

why...

you love her more

Just stop and leave

what the fuck am i doing
what the fuck am i doing

Have you ever had one of those day where you wake up and

actually start thanking for what you have. You feel a slightness

of happiness... you actually feel HAPPY! Light headed towards

your direction, but then everything out of the blue crumbles

and piles up and its, its pure garbage! nothing more than garbage.

How can something feel so beautiful at once but then painful

and greedy afterwards. For no reason what so ever i noticed

my loneliness. I feel the cycle of emptiness nothing more than emptiness.

It goes on and off and on and off a stupid insignificant cycle of depression.

They all had reasons, reasons you didn't get clear but now just now!

I decide to actually know to comprehend that they all in the end left.
By doing that i entered the past. Back where i was two weeks ago.
Now go along fuckers ..... for i need time to think of the time.
To think of this cold journey i face by myself.

I fucking love owl city

Have you?

have you ever thought if she thinks of a windy day when summer?
of how she smiles and gives it all but her love just cant... be corresponded

of how she spends hours waiting for a simple smile or hello?

her sleeping problems caused by you?

her mind twirling. Her fucking sick mind... thinking of how better everyone is

well i have

and she couldn't finish

that's what you get

My life couldn't get more fucked up.

just when i started feeling a bit of brightness hit me...

I'm ardent to find Words that will describe the way I'm feeling

I wish I could fade away slowly

you cant call this a feeling you cant call this something temporarily

as the minutes pass hours.. nights.. days..

i realize i was back where i started. I once again prove i was right

smile child

:D i smiled once i saw this. It automatically put a stupid silly smile on my face

it made my day. Fact is i'll smile everythime i think of this.

with all the its cool janette ohohoh no wait apperantly cool is now fresh sorry haha

so its fresh janette. dont worry janette. your a stalker janettte. lol janet and i know

4sure these people werent feeling sorry lol . shut up

even stupid sir alex made my day weird even the stupid comments made my day

btw made something lamee but i love lame!

so yea i made this hmmm idk i made it this week though (:

random communication random life but in the end okay i guess until

so let me ask again Hows your life lately

but wait

relief.. forgetting thank you Cindy(: but it still continues hold on hold on oh ooh

i start with this new idea of a look acting weird even i admitted my strange behaviours ??

o.O AND I FINALLY REALIZE

and i can finally figure the past, but like said you move on and keep the memories in not alive but simply what they are memories

i realized i made this soooo dramatic lol wow but i dunno why I'm laughing i don't really wanna laugh ahh its a habit

there's his silence loud as a roar, pulling

at me like the greatest sadness ever

i want to take it and press myself into it

and just disappear forever down into

nothing. That would feel like a relief a

blessed relief, sweet relief but no all i see and hear is

that big roar of nothing but silence.

How ironic it caught my attention stop to look at it and it ended.
learned something i knew felt it before but it still remains

In the arms of the angel. Old memories

Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it ok
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an Angel fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees

In the arms of an Angel far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
In the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here



so i was searching the web Internet whatever you wanna call it
and found the song i sang at Merritt's memorial this song is beautiful
i still remember the excitement and sadness i felt my legs shaking
its by Sarah McLachlan memories

quote you

"say something nice something i wont forget so i can quote your every word"

you have my attention

because I think of you

because i dont give a shit

because you make me mad

because i hate people

simply because i hate people that remind me of you

so smile for today he loves you

when i saw this

i felt like crying its amazing knowing someone can love love.

not the kinda (give in, sex, perverted) love that shits fake

Build it to stand dont let it fall

I'm tired of your sophisticated way of saying Mad!
not showing you are?
i asked my self why go through the tough side why take the long path
and i could not come up with something educative about it.
you change. everyone changes but ..... yours is drastic
one day after another the change appears it comes out and its noticeable
i receive comments on my behavior but yours!
what about yours
yours dammit
am i the only one noticing what happens can i smell, feel better than anyone or am i building something that does not exists while i spend hours thinking of how to make this stable so it wont fall.
it in the end does not matter for it does not exists no one can see my creation
I'm starting to feel like no one can explain the whole point of me standing here if I'm invisible
if i cant be talked to. if I'm not needed anymore. I'm tired i've had enough of it I'm done!

If not today tomorrow.

hello, its been some time since i haven't posted on here and i really really needed to write whats been on my head lately well while i think

Please let me be my self